All Done And Dusted.

Well I'm done. Got back home from hospital yesterday afternoon and I feel like I've been kicked in the ribs by a rather large horse. I know this will get better and the sooner the better. I've been drinking lots of fluids, water, milk, tea, might try a milky coffee later. The hardest bit is that it takes about half an hour to drink half a cup of anything and its gone cold before I manage it. Hate cold tea lol. I'm feeling very happy that it's all done. No doubts about it, no turning back even if I did. It's all very positive and I can't wait to get going again.

Cancelled!....

Well what can I say. My op was cancelled. Bit of a balls up altogether really. First there was a bed, then there wasn't. The there was, and after sitting in admissions for 7 hours we were taken up to the ward and exhausted from being up since 5am with no food or drink since the night before I laid on top of the bed until a nurse came along and said they needed the bed for another patient and changed it and wheeled it away. Then another nurse came along and said they were ready for me and I changed and we rushed down to the theatre, waited about 10 mins in a corridor and then the theatre manager and the surgeon came out and asked me to come along to the office. Just knew right then it was cancelled and had a complete melt down. I realise that there was an emergency and of course that had to come first but after waiting all that time and 3 years, and the build up of stress over the previous week was too much to handle.

I have a new date. 25th Nov will totally **** up work because of the job I do and it was messed up last year because I had a heart attack on the 20th Nov and was off until the week before Christmas so goodness knows what head office will say.

I'm totally gutted. Tim has gone out to get takeway now that I have a week before the bloody milk and yogurt again.

One Day To Go.......

Can't believe I've only got one day left. I'm very excited but on the other hand, I'm so worried too. How can you be so excited one moment and scared the next. Even though it's been 3 years coming, I'm in a state. Think that the majority of my worry is that I'm so sad that I wont be able to eat sweet stuff or fried stuff again. I suppose it's just hit me that I wont be able to eat scampi and chips in Wetherspoons on a Thursday night or taco's with sour cream and cheese or fish and chips or chicken kiev or jacket potato with butter and cheese. Even if they are in toddler size portions. I'm not so worried about the sweet stuff because I know I can cook lovely deserts using splenda and I'm not a chocolate person anyway. It's just the fried I'm more sad about, not being able to eat a piece of breaded scampi, 3 chips and the end off the PS's steak when we go out for a meal. I've heard that oven chips are ok but not sure what else is. What about fish fingers and stuff you can put in the oven like that?

I'd hate for you to think we only ate stuff like that, we do eat loads of good whole food, casseroles, roasts and veg etc but something naughty is nice now and then isn't it especially when you're out and it's all you can get.

I havn't gone to church this morning, Tim and the kids have gone but I wanted to stay home and spring clean so it's all done for when I get back. Can't stand the thought of coming home to a messy house especially as I wont be able to do too much the first few days and I know there will be visitors including MY LOVELY BOSS.

After lunch we're going to relax with a good film and a pot of tea and then later we are all going to my in laws for a firework party and BBQ (I'm having ww soup) and then the kids are staying there for a few nights while I'm in. There's a bus stops at the end of their road that stops outside their school so no problem.

Just got to pack my bag tonight, got my pile of stuff ready, PJ's, wash bag, baby wipes, lip salve, hairbrush, bath towel, magazine, SF barley water, DS, games and charger, Mobile and charger. Think that's all I need, Tim can bring in anything else I need. Luckily we're only about 20 mins from the hospital.

Not sure how I'll feel tomorrow, going to cross that bridge when I come to it but I'm pretty calm and 'ready' right now.