Into Week Four.....

And what a result. My clothes are starting to hang off me. I've not got many that fit properly now and I'm still to shrink into the clothes that I had when I was thin before so I'm starting to look a bit baggy around the seams. I put a top on this morning and it was huge, I used to wear it regularly to work and I don't think I'll be wearing it again. I'm not going to be buying too much too soon, no point really is there.

Things are still going great food wise and I'm now on the mashed soft food stage. This is slightly more exciting than purees and I'm finding it easy to go out for dinner and find something on the menu I can eat. By the new year I'll be back onto proper crunchy food again. Can't wait to be able to eat salad again lol.

Kate x

Nearly 2 Weeks Out....

And I feel fabulous. No pain, bit uncomfortable if I eat too much but that's how it's supposed to be so not complaining. I've progressed from from milk, tea and coffee to thinned down purees now. Chicken tikka massala with the fat removed and then pureed and added to mash, milked down to make it very sloppy. Delicious and today Oh my goodness, what a lunch. Pureed baked beans, grated cheese and half a slice of ham, heated in the microwave and pureed again wit a little water. Definitely having that again and full of protein too. I think the worse thing is trying to drink 1 1/2 litres of water. I've never been a big drinker and I have to drink it so slowly now that I just don't get round to it. I solved the cold drink problem and brought a thermo mug which has helped an awful lot and today through the post arrived my baby bowl that I can fill with boiling water and kept my lunch toasty hot without me having to re-heat it in the microwave half way through.

I've also been doing some excersise. Well if you can call it that, I caught the bus into Wallington and walked home afterwards. Only about a mile but more than I've done in a good while. I've lost 81b since the op, 36 since I signed up for WW in the summer. Not bad eh. More later...

All Done And Dusted.

Well I'm done. Got back home from hospital yesterday afternoon and I feel like I've been kicked in the ribs by a rather large horse. I know this will get better and the sooner the better. I've been drinking lots of fluids, water, milk, tea, might try a milky coffee later. The hardest bit is that it takes about half an hour to drink half a cup of anything and its gone cold before I manage it. Hate cold tea lol. I'm feeling very happy that it's all done. No doubts about it, no turning back even if I did. It's all very positive and I can't wait to get going again.

Cancelled!....

Well what can I say. My op was cancelled. Bit of a balls up altogether really. First there was a bed, then there wasn't. The there was, and after sitting in admissions for 7 hours we were taken up to the ward and exhausted from being up since 5am with no food or drink since the night before I laid on top of the bed until a nurse came along and said they needed the bed for another patient and changed it and wheeled it away. Then another nurse came along and said they were ready for me and I changed and we rushed down to the theatre, waited about 10 mins in a corridor and then the theatre manager and the surgeon came out and asked me to come along to the office. Just knew right then it was cancelled and had a complete melt down. I realise that there was an emergency and of course that had to come first but after waiting all that time and 3 years, and the build up of stress over the previous week was too much to handle.

I have a new date. 25th Nov will totally **** up work because of the job I do and it was messed up last year because I had a heart attack on the 20th Nov and was off until the week before Christmas so goodness knows what head office will say.

I'm totally gutted. Tim has gone out to get takeway now that I have a week before the bloody milk and yogurt again.

One Day To Go.......

Can't believe I've only got one day left. I'm very excited but on the other hand, I'm so worried too. How can you be so excited one moment and scared the next. Even though it's been 3 years coming, I'm in a state. Think that the majority of my worry is that I'm so sad that I wont be able to eat sweet stuff or fried stuff again. I suppose it's just hit me that I wont be able to eat scampi and chips in Wetherspoons on a Thursday night or taco's with sour cream and cheese or fish and chips or chicken kiev or jacket potato with butter and cheese. Even if they are in toddler size portions. I'm not so worried about the sweet stuff because I know I can cook lovely deserts using splenda and I'm not a chocolate person anyway. It's just the fried I'm more sad about, not being able to eat a piece of breaded scampi, 3 chips and the end off the PS's steak when we go out for a meal. I've heard that oven chips are ok but not sure what else is. What about fish fingers and stuff you can put in the oven like that?

I'd hate for you to think we only ate stuff like that, we do eat loads of good whole food, casseroles, roasts and veg etc but something naughty is nice now and then isn't it especially when you're out and it's all you can get.

I havn't gone to church this morning, Tim and the kids have gone but I wanted to stay home and spring clean so it's all done for when I get back. Can't stand the thought of coming home to a messy house especially as I wont be able to do too much the first few days and I know there will be visitors including MY LOVELY BOSS.

After lunch we're going to relax with a good film and a pot of tea and then later we are all going to my in laws for a firework party and BBQ (I'm having ww soup) and then the kids are staying there for a few nights while I'm in. There's a bus stops at the end of their road that stops outside their school so no problem.

Just got to pack my bag tonight, got my pile of stuff ready, PJ's, wash bag, baby wipes, lip salve, hairbrush, bath towel, magazine, SF barley water, DS, games and charger, Mobile and charger. Think that's all I need, Tim can bring in anything else I need. Luckily we're only about 20 mins from the hospital.

Not sure how I'll feel tomorrow, going to cross that bridge when I come to it but I'm pretty calm and 'ready' right now.

1 Week To Go.....

Well I'm into week 2 of the pre-op diet and although I don't have any scales I know I've lost weight because my jeans have been falling down all weekend ha ha. I've just ironed my work trousers and wonder if I should be swapping them for the smaller size I have hanging in the wardrobe. It's a funny thing this weightloss thing isn't it. I've got 2 bags full of summer clothes, linen trousers, tops, crop jeans etc that are ready for the charity shop as I know they're not going to fit me next summer. Isn't that a wonderful thing, to be absolutely sure that I wont grow back into them again.

1 week to go and although at times I feel as if I could burst into tears (might do me good actually) I don't feel too bad nerves wise. I do keep getting palpitations and I'm not quite sure why but I'm sure it has more to do with lack of food than my heart. This is my last week at work then I have 3 weeks off to recover. Quite looking forward to the 3 weeks off. Looking forward to buying new clothes even more lol.

9 Days To Go.....

I've changed to the yogurts and milk diet. I don't know, I just don't trust the soup and yogurt one. I'm so worried I'll wake up not done because my livers still too large. I know it's stupid, but I can't see how it's working cause it's too easy, tasty and I'm not feeling too hungry.

Todays been ok, I still have about 3/4 of a pint of milk to drink this evening and a yogurt which I will have with some sugar free jelly later for supper followed by a milky coffee. It's less calories than the soup/yog or all milk diet which is strange. Anyway, I sort of feel better for doing it. Don't know if I've lost any weight as I don't posess a scales ha ha. Will find out when they weigh me on the 7th I guess.

We went out for dinner to Wetherspoons in Wallington last night and Tim had fish and chips, peas and bread and butter and I gave them a tin of soup and asked them if they'd mind heating it up for me and you know what, they did. 5 stars go to Wetherspoons. I ate my yogurt for pudding too. Ha ha. Ikea was a doddle as they have microwaves around the seating area for heating up baby food so I had my late afternoon soup along side my free cuppa.